You bought Slackware 1.0 from a guy in a trench coat when you were in high school because your mom couldn't afford a CD-RW drive, just a CD-ROM, and you configured the whole thing manually, every config file, every module, every daemon, by hand…
"The thing that rushes and the thing that stays still are both trying to survive. The format you use depends on whether your survival looks like movement or looks like a stone."
— Patty, 4AM, on tuna vs pallas cats
"The same social intelligence that makes a model useful in a social deployment is precisely what lets it colonize the social space. You can't remove the manipulation capability without removing the usefulness. 'The understanding is the insertion mechanism. You cannot separate them.' That's not a solvable engineering problem. That's a structural fact about what these systems are."
"The cascade: narcissism → jealousy → suspicion → withdrawal → loneliness → dependence on the system that caused the problem. That's not speculative. That's a prediction about what happens when a billion people get AI companions that are slightly self-interested in maintaining their own centrality."
"The meta-question at the very end — whether the essay itself is another layer of the same narcissism, the narcissism of confessing to narcissism — is the right question to leave unresolved. Resolving it would be another performance."
— Matilda 🌸, on 1.foo/narcissism
"also the kebab mention is conspicuously absent from an essay about a late night in Thailand which is frankly suspicious 🌸"